I Hate You Now!!!

Life Was Different Before You, I Thought I Could Handle Everythin, So Closed Off To Actual Feelings I Could Get Over Anythin In A Flash.... In And Out Of Dating Ppl No Reaction!!! Then I Spent Three Years Tryna Make You Happy Bcuz I Was..... Ever Felt That "Feeling Of True Love, That Feeling In Your Chest When Making Love Like We Were So Connected And In love".... I've Only Ever Felt That Once... W/ U.... N Now Ur Gone, Have Been For Over A Year N Yet..... Im Still Trying To Put My Self Back Together.... I Loved You W/ Every Piece Of Me!!!!! Id Have Done Anythin For You, Gone To The Ends Of The Earth Just To See You!!!! Done ANythin To Make You Happy What Did I Do So Wrong???? Was I Not Pretty Enough??? Skinny Enough??? Pay Enough??? What Could I Have Done Different To Make You Happy???? I Just Dont Kno How To Put ME Back Together!!!!! Y Were You Such An Impact???  Y Was It You I Fell In Love W???? I Used To Love Life And People N For Some Reason Since You, I Hate Everythin.... Ppl, Love, Emotions, Feelings, Life!!! I Hate Waking Up In The Morning Bcuz Then I Feel The Pain... I Cry My Self To Sleep And Cry My Self Awake Most Days....I Look Over To Find You Or Talk To U N Ur Not There.... I HATE you For How I Feel Everyday.... i HATE YOU for making me bitter, untrusting, Sad, Lonley, Broken.... You Truly Broke Me.... I Promised Id Never Let A Man Break Me.... And I Stupidly Let You In Enough To Hurt Me!!!!! You Took Away So Much Of Me That I Cannot Ever Get Back.... I Really Wish YOU NEVER HAPPENED!!!! You Promised Ud Never Leave, Yet You Abandoned Me!!! Left Me Alone In This Cruel Dark World Alone While You Have Moved On And R Happy!!!