I Need To Vent

Just some venting in the form of journaling. I had to get it out of my head and into words.

For once, can you try to see things from my point-of-view instead of your own warped version of the isolated little world you live in?

You tell me you're sorry that "I believe" I had a bad childhood.

However, we remember things differently.

One of my biggest and most painful memories from that childhood that you don't seem to think was so bad is my mother leaving the house to go have affairs.  I would ask, "Mommy, where are you going?" You would reply, "Out."  I would reply, "Can I come with you?"  You would reply, "No."  I would ask, "When will you be back home?"  And you would reply "When I get back."

Meanwhile, Daddy was glued to the computer or taking 5 hour baths with a cocaine problem.

When I bring this up to you, you tell me to put the past in the past.  However, this was your past.  This was my childhood.  One's childhood molds them into the adult they become.

You taught me how to be certain things and act certain ways based on your own decisions, behavior, and conduct, when I was a child.

And you wonder why you raised such s****y kids?

Open your f*****g eyes, for once!

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

True and wise words. Kids need attention and help.
"And you wonder why you raised such s****y kids?
Open your f*****g eyes, for once!"
I agree with your logic and point made. Thank you for sharing the excellent story.
Coyote

[KarMarBar]

Thank you understanding my "venting" and for the kind review! I greatly appreciate it! Happy New Year!

[Coyote Poetry]

I hope you are having a safe and fun New Year and you are welcome.

[Leon C]

Powerful stuff. You can feel the energy of your venting.

Hate to be picky but 'One's childhood ' feels like it is written and not said in an argument.

[KarMarBar]

Thank you. I like how you felt the energy. You're not being "picky" at all, your idea is great and I thank you very much for the constructive feedback. :)

[Southern_Writes]

Wow, I can relate once again. A mother giving everything to a man, who gave his everything to drugs and other women. A mother who loved a husband and son, more then the two daughters who was watching how we were meant to love and be loved. Years of doubting our beauty and self worth, cheating and being verbally abused, because we were taught "this is love". I am happy to say, in the end we both learned "We deserve more and we are sorry you couldn't see it". I love this.

[KarMarBar]

Thank you so much!

[Inject Positivity]

Every word here is 100% true.I admire your courage and the way you showed your feelings here is truly brilliant.I can understand how painful this is for a child....Thank you for this eye-opening work....You are really courageous....Thank you frnd....

[KarMarBar]

Those are very kind words. Thank you so very much!

[McBear]

Hey, sorry that it took me so long to get to this. I had 14 RR after I came back to the site from a little break. Well, I can relate to this strongly. Sometimes, people never even try to see things in the way we want them to see. Like, they don't even begin to try. It makes us upset because we feel like they don't understand. Ya feel? Words have such a huge effect on almost everything. Words are what get things to happen; conduct movement or anything else. Parents wonder why some of us struggle.. its simply because of how they not only treated us but what they said.

[KarMarBar]

That's okay, thanks for getting to it. Parents don't seem to realize that everything they said and did when we were children affect us later in life. Thanks for reviewing and understanding.

[McBear]

True. Also, no problem. I am glad you read and review your writing. Its very good

[KarMarBar]

Thank you, I really appreciate that you said my writing is very good... and I'm getting to your read requests, just so you know. :)

[McBear]

:) Thank you very much

[wordman]

parents just don`t realize how they effect there children,bad choices for them,is bad memories for you !

[KarMarBar]

It could be a blessing in disguise. Now I know what NOT to do with my own children.

[annalysiar]

Now this is something, raw and emotional...i can emphasize and understand in so many ways it hurts.
But remember life makes you, And you make yourself... You're strong and a survivor. Great write.

[KarMarBar]

Thank you very much! I'll try my best to remember. :)

[annalysiar]

And you're not alone😃 you need to talk there's someone to listen

[KarMarBar]

Thank you. I appreciate that, :)

[annalysiar]

You're welcome