Once Upon a Time

I wrote this at 3 am during a very emotional period in my life. From innocence of a young girl to the harsh reality of a young adult, these are the thoughts I had in my head.

Once upon a time...

I was happy. I lived in a bright, flawless home.

I felt loved. I had full confidence my family loved me.

I was safe. I knew nothing could hurt me.

I was brave. I felt like I could conquer anything.

I had strength. I felt like I was unstoppable.

I had passion. I knew what I loved and pursued it faithfully.

I felt liked. i knew for sure my friends always had my back.

I had hope. i woke up every morning with a smile.

I was whole. I knew exactly who I was and where I was going.

But that time has passed...

It's been years since I felt anything...

My whole world has been shattered...

and now...

I am depressed. My home now broken and unhappy.

I feel despised. I doubt the love my family has for me.

I am vulnerable. Everything hurts from opening myself to others.

I am scared. I don't want to hurt anyone, or anyone to hurt me.

I am weak. I feel like I can't do anything good anymore.

I have nothing. I can't find real motivation for everyday struggles.

I feel used. I learned that a most of the people I called friends were fakes.

I feel hopeless. I wake up and dread the day ahead.

I am broken. I don't know who I am anymore, or where I should go.

Now I sit here late at night, ready to end my suffering.

But before I do...

I want to tell you a story. A story about me.

Once upon a time...

Author's Note

It's my first piece, what do you think?

Reviews

[Misery]

Your raw, painful, truthful words are not dissimilar from my own, dear poet.
I wish I could say it will get better, but after many years of regret and shame I feel the same as you feel now.
Perhaps in the deep release of poetry you can find the strength to live another week, another year, and perhaps find a reason to build an acceptable life for yourself. Best of good fortune, dear poet, and try to be good to yourself.

[KanaDream]

This is beautifully sad and the loop was genius. Starting out once upon a time and leaving the end as the beginning... It's heartfelt, sad, but beautiful. Keep dreaming. ^^