Smother

Every time I make a new friend

I'm scared out of my wits

How do I resist loving someone who accepts me

I don't want to suffocate her whoever she is

 

I'm the kind of guy that's tremendously shy

So afraid of what may happen if I even tried

To approach someone and have some fun once in a while

I missed the ability to laugh and smile

 

I don't recognize the person in the mirror 

for he is so clouded with insecurities and fear 

So when someone gives me a chance 

or is even the slightest bit of nice 

 

My feelings go into full drive 

And I crash into this divide 

My friendships hanging on thin lines 

I'm sorry If I smother you 

 

How do I shake this fear 

What's it like having friends who don't disappear 

How do I learn to appreciate someone and not fall straight in love 

Maybe for once just have someone love me instead 

 

I don't want to be a bother

but I wish I was the one getting smothered

This is the truth of where my innocent feelings lie

Behind Closed Eyes

Author's Note

Reviews

[redflutterby]

You touch on something here many struggle with. I admire your honesty because recognizing the problem is half the battle. Fear of being abandoned does terrible things to us...we may cling to or smother someone because we are so afraid they will walk away. And if our feelings dont match theirs it can make for an imbalance which leads to ruination. Its important to remember some things when it comes to friendship. The other person is an individual with their own life...needs and feelings. They can't be responsible for assuaging our insecurities or sensitivities. Yes they should support us and care for us but if our doubts lead to them having to change or prove their friendship then really our motivations are way out of line! Friendship is about both people and should be a comfortable place to reside....not stressful or awkward for either person. Great poem here.....

[KeeD]

Totally agree, thank you for the review.

[Frieda P]

I know I left a review for this already, for some reason its gone to cafe heaven or the gremlins got it...I felt this one in my bones, I love Daughter, and this is one of my favorite songs. We tend to confuse love with an overwhelming compulsion to possess another person's emotions and total being/heart. There needs to be spaces in love, life, and friendships alike. It's like the cracks, that's where the light gets in, much the same with relationships. You think you want to be smother'd but once you can't breathe, you'd have to come up for air eventually. Nicely pen'd my friend, an excellent read, I say yet again. ;-) x

100 oxygen masks ;-P

[KeeD]

You did Frieda P, I closed that account so the reviews didn't transpire over, i'm terribly sorry about that and really appreciate you reviewing and reading this again, thank you.

[Frieda P]

Ha thought I was losing my mind, well did that already ha ;-) My pleasure always.