Smother

Every time I make a new friend

I'm scared out of my wits

How do I resist loving someone who accepts me

I don't want to suffocate her whoever she is

 

I'm the kind of guy that's tremendously shy

So afraid of what may happen if I even tried

To approach someone and have some fun once in a while

I missed the ability to laugh and smile

 

I don't recognize the person in the mirror 

For he is so clouded with insecurities and fear 

So when someone gives me a chance 

Or is even the slightest bit of nice 

 

My feelings go into full drive 

And I crash into this divide 

My friendships hanging on thin lines 

I'm sorry If I smother you 

 

How do I shake this fear 

What's it like having friends who don't disappear 

How do I learn to appreciate someone and not fall straight in love 

Maybe for once just have someone love me instead 

 

I don't want to be a bother

But I wish I was the one getting smothered

This is the truth of where my innocent feelings lie

Behind Closed Eyes

Author's Note

picture credit thecockpit

Reviews

[FlatLineBeauty]

It's like looking into my journal. It's no wonder why we have been the best of friends for so long. It's like your soul just gets mine

[KeeD]

After my breakup, when we became friends this is how I felt, like so many people tried to be my friends but I would either run away or just completely adore them, I don't know how to be myself anymore. It's hard to move on even though it's been so long you know? And when anyone shows me a bit of niceness in their hearts I fall in love. Cause I don't experience that a lot.