Depression Comes in Doses

I have an obscene obsession

in living a lie

Tangled in deception 

that real men don't cry

I cried a lot today

for reasons unknown

The tears, they don't seem to fade away

I feel incredibly alone 

There is happiness around me

of this I am certain

What the joyful fail to see

is the broken man behind the curtain

Feeling a different way

would make me an abnormal soul

Hate me every day

for having no control

Fixing what is broken

is a defeated task 

If you rip this facade open 

There's no smile behind this mask

Do I need permission to say goodbye

Is it too selfish to ask?

Honestly, who isn't afraid to die

Alas, my mind a prisoner to the task!

Author's Note

If you're feeling low, seek help, talk to someone. Life is hard, it can be harder on some compared to others, it is our duty as human beings to help hear out the difficult times and be the voice of reason for those hurting. Love and strength to all, together we shall overcome.

Reviews

[Carol Cashes]

"There is happiness around me
of this I am certain"

Don't you think a lot of this "happiness" you see around you is the same facade you have to hide that you have no smile? No one knows another's heart...

This was very good, but I was happier reading your Author's note and knowing it's not your current state of mind.

[KeeD]

Thank you Carol

[Mirror]

"This was very good, but I was happier reading your Author's note and knowing it's not your current state of mind"
True Carol.

[Linda]

I think this piece flows so perfectly! I suffer from depression. I was diagnosed at a young age and I think this piece is amazing to not only shine a light on depression, but that men go through it too. That men feel and that a lot show that they are all "men" but are secretly struggling.

[KeeD]

Thank you Linda, the struggle is indeed real for all human kind.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

yes, as you say in your note, talk to someone, seek help---
sometimes we just try to find a reason not to do it...a reason to live one more day...
powerful piece of writing.
j.

[KeeD]

Thank you Jacob

[ms. barrie]

stunning portrayal of the topic at hand. unique, poignant metaphors, pleasing meter, and dictation. i enjoyed your author's note as well..as inspiring, as this poem you penned. --
namaste, keegan - xx -

[KeeD]

Thank you Barrie