I'm Sorry

light...light...shining in my face
blinding me with it's beauty
seeking...seeking...always seeking
for that which i shall never have
missing...missing so much now
rethinking my life and its direction
hurting...hurting...always hurting
self destruction has been my motto
trying...trying...gotta keep on trying
to reach the finish line
sorry...sorry...oh so sorry
for taking two steps back
lying...lying...i keep on lying
always to myself