Moving on hurts

I knew that this day would come
And the pain that will make me lonesome
I expected the disappointment
And the betrayal to a great extent.

I anticipated this split is going to happen
Along with the regret I felt all of a sudden
I had foreseen I'd be in this situation
The loss of feeling and disorientation.

But why does it have to be so excruciating?
I prepared for this, but still it's upsetting
Moving on hurts, as you deal with triggers and relapses
Healing is not easy, it's a tough non-linear process

I could tell that I'll be the worst version of me
Sitting sadly, in a melancholic brown study
I'm no longer surprised since some connections need to end
But the scar left is permanent, you can't hide or pretend

I should have known it would be too dramatic
Knowing I love deeply like an obsessed fanatic
It was obvious that time marches on, better start to let go.
Moving on hurts but I must embrace the lesson and grow.