Suicide Prevention Training Role Play

Life is about perspective. What I see is completely different than what someone else sees. I just recently changed majors from business administration to photography. Needless to say, my parents are worried. I'm their only child. I suppose they have a right to be worried. But not smothering. Five-six times a day I get phone calls from my mother. My dad, seven emails between the hours of 9 am and noon. It must have been a slow day in the office. But I don't need any more friends in my life, I need parents. Did you go out last night? When I went to school down there, I went out five nights a week. The tuition bill came in that will be $8,000, jkol, don't worry son, we paid for it. Going to the game later tonight? No, I didn't go out last, and no I'm not going to the game later. I understand that my parents love me. School is different nowadays. It's a competitive market. The hungry wolves pick out the weak sheep and thin the herd. I thought changing majors would help. Explore myself a little bit more. But the more I do, I realize that I know less and less about this world. It is just clear to me that the world is a huge place, and I'm always in competition with the people around me. I'm tired. I just want to sleep.

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[boyinblue]

I don't really understand the title but I can relate to this, real or not. I dropped outta med school with a supporting family behind me. Now I'm home, at least you switched majors. Everyday I wake up and I just want to go back to sleep. Life used to be so easy being told what you have to do, hey! I think i understand the government now :)
I thought I could go into business. I thought wrong, like medicine, my hopes were up for it until my pipe dreams gave way to reality. I dropped math way back when for biology and chemistry, thinking my life was going to be linear from there on.
Sometimes...maybe all the times, I wish I never bought my ticket home. I wish I didn't have to wake up in a house full of people telling me it's okay and to give it time "you're young." I wish I could just quiet it all. I'm exhausted from doing nothing. I feel defeated and useless. And all i do now is workout, eat, write on this site and dream about being a greater person.
I put away thoughts of suicide and reinforced my being here with stories of people who came from nothing to something. Yet i came from something: a great family and an easy life. Sometimes I get caught under the impression that if I were less gifted I would be more of a person than I am. But now, now I just want to go to sleep and dream. When i wake up all this would be for nothing and I would go on living my life as obliviously and confused as I have somehow always been deep down inside.
No friends, no life, living at home with no purpose.
Should have punched myself in the balls and stayed in medical school.