The One Who Watched

Today,

I helped my best friend get ready for her first date.

She was beaming ear to ear as I walked her out the door.

Two months ago,

I watched two soulmates be united forever.

Four months ago,

I watched a girl say "I do" to a man she settled for.

I saw them, but I gave up my chance to be them.

Would I be so desperate to lower my standards that I settled?

Would I find the one that is my perfect match?

Would I be giddy for an uncertain future?

Today, 

            I 

               don't 

                        know.