Standing Alone in a Crowded Room

It’s been four years since we parted ways

and I still haven’t got back

that part of myself that you took away

so tell me how I can fix this mess

because it was the part of myself

that I liked the best

and I have no idea what happened

don’t know where it all went wrong

but I didn’t realise just how much I needed you

until you were gone

didn’t realise I didn’t have a voice

until you stopped singing the song

and I’ve tried turning strangers into my home

but your shelter is all I’ve ever known

I’ve tried having the confidence

to follow my arrow

but how can I do that

when I’ve always just been your shadow?

Loneliness is a word that I was always foreign to

because at the end of the day,

I always had you

but I stood by and watched you burn all your bridges

I watched our entire life together go up in smoke

now even in a crowded room, I still feel all alone

and I have no idea how I can change this

I don’t know how I can mend

this emptiness in my chest

when just being your sister

is always what I’ve done best.