Distrust

This poem illustrates the imbalance that can come about when a friendship is not well balanced. I have since come to terms with this situation.

I have to say that apart of me distrusts you

Now that I've come home

And I find out that you've had to bite your tongue when speaking to me

I thought, in my own deluded sense, that I'd be above that

Perhaps I never fulfilled a sense of great friendship

That would block out your desire to sting me 

Like a winged wasp

I don't know how to navigate this part of friendship

That was shielded by a mirage

So hidden from view

That I never knew

It existed in you 

I have become nervous at every word I say

And question asked

I never know if my requests or comments 

Will start off a chain reaction in you 

If I step too far

I am trying to be a perfect friend

Soaring above all heights

Being there 

What if eventually I no longer care?

I have tried too hard

The fear and the distrust grows

Perhaps I have come to a close

For the first time I'm seeing fear in myself around you 

This grieves me

I love you as my best friend

Someone who gets me

And now that I've come home

There are a different set of dynamics

Will our friendship stay

And grow in a healthy way 

Or come to a halt

And go extinct like the dinosaurs 

Because I gave too much and got burnt out

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[Honestly J.T.]

Sometimes you just have to move on;