Lost Hope

Guess I really did it this time

Lead myself on the wrong path.

Lost all sense of hope

And lost my mind trying to get it back.

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It was easier back in my younger days

Always being anything I wanted to be.

It was beautiful because I believed everyone

And everyone believed in me

I  did things I can't really speak of

But when night comes, I live it all again.

I wouldn't have fallen apart now

If I had seen what I know now then.

Why can't I go back to my younger days

When I let others help me achieve?

Why can't I just run away to another life

And get rid of the monster coming after me?

But who I am is not where I've been

I can still be that strong little girl I was then.

Now I realize it's okay, life is just a tough crowd.

I'm only 16 and still growing up.

Who I am is not what I did or how.

I can still be the one everyone can trust.

Time turns darkness into light;

I know I will have new days that are bright

Because everyone else has messed up too

My mind's flames will soon turn to embers

I just hope I remember

That today is never too late to

Be brand new.

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I really did it this time

Leading myself on the wrong path.

But even though I have lost all hope

I know it's never too late to get it all back.