Two Options

An issue a close friend is suffering through...

So as I see it, I have two options:

-Option One: The one I am with now, the one I love and always have. The one I have a past, present and future with. The one who has been with me through thick and thin, and I've known him for the longest time. Its been off and one with us, but I still love him.

-Option Two: My new knight in shining armor, whos come to regain my heart. Sure, we've had our moments. We have fallen out of friendship, and somehow managed to come back together. But nothing like second chances, right?

 

And so the torture begins...

 

     Unfortunately, I love both of them. My heart is being torn apart. Should I stay with who I'm with? Do I dare close my eyes and take a chance? Who will be hurt?

     Why did Option Two even have to come along? I think I was perfectly fine living life before him. But then he steps into the picture, and steals me from myself. I can't think straight around him. My judgement is erred, and I want to just drop everything and be his, be in his arms.

     Only one thing is holding me back. Option One, to be exact. I don't want anyone hurt, and he is who would get hurt. We've been through this before, and I refused to let go of him. Option Two came around the first time, and I did try to drop everything for him. I couldn't do it, I couldn't let go of Option One, because I needed someone to come back to. I wasn't ready for the leap, I was protecting myself. And that was the right decision.

     But now the feelings are stronger, so much more tempting. There is this wanting desire that is driving me mad. I know I shouldn't even be thinking of wanting Option Two, because I know I should be perfectly fine with Option One.

     But when does reality kick in? When do I get to step back and stop trying to fool myself. I'm not happy. Being content with life means sitting back and letting it happen, putting on this mask to everyone because thats what I should do. Thats what needs to be done to keep everyone happy. To keep this illusion that I live in possible. But I'm sick of the pain, the termoil, the torture that comes with it. I can't do that anymore.

 

Maybe if I take the chance, this will all go away.

 

     But what if it doesn't? How can I be absolutely certain this won't happen again? I can't. And this time, there is no going back. I'm not going to sit around and wonder what could have been. I'm not going to wonder if the pain was temporary, and I sure won't sit here in the pain anymore. This is the part where I make my decision. No looking back, no climbing out.

 

This is the part where I leap.

Author's Note

Excuse the grammer and spelling errors, and this being my first writing, be brutal when reviewing.

Reviews

[Scarlett Willows]

I swore this was about you but when you said it was about someone else it just creeps me out because now it sounds like me.. either easy j loved it why does everyone have so much talent in everything hut me

[Marianne Miller]

I really enjoyed this it was grounded and real. It easily relatable to lots of people, the two options running parallel really added to the narrator's mind frame, it gave the piece a real sense of style and helped set the scene of someone caught in indecision.

[Theresa]

If this is your first writing then I am looking forward to see what else you have. I think what makes it so great is the reality of the situation. So many people are in this situation and while both outcomes look good you can't have both and need to choose one. The question being of course which one. My only answer is if you go for option two and say it works out who's to say that one day you won't be back in the same situation. Something new always seems to be more exciting and passionate, but everything new becomes old. Then again sometimes you need something new to jumpstart your life. A great story that leaves the reader thinking way after they have finished reading it. Nicely done.

[WriterMe]

This was pretty good. Dont sell yourself short, I see potential in you. I think you write on the basis of reality and thats what makes your writing good. I would love to read more from you. =]

---Niki

[D Hughes]

it was outstanding! it was smooth, clear and with feeling. i can't wait to read more of your work

[f**k you]

I like this. It's very well written and draws me in. One thing I think you should think about changing, is the format. It kind of is like a wall of words and it's a big chunky block without any stanzas or real paragraphs. Writerscafe can be funny when you write something, because it looks one way when you type it, but looks totally different when it's published. So, maybe you should indent and space paragraphs better. But anyways, good job. I enjoyed this.

[deeps]

This is wonderful I really like your story. Everything held together well and flowed well. Alot of feeling in this well expressed.