Dancing With My Monster

Sometimes I let the depression take over, wanting to dance along.

Dancing with my Monster
Is oddly comforting sometimes;
Almost alluring. 
I let him caress my hand;
His claws stone cold,
Wrapped with thorns.

 

I enable him to be the lead,
Following the dark music he plays.
If he steps back,
I step back.

 

I stare into his onyx eyes,
Reflecting the fire and ice in mine.
He stares softly,
To not alarm me.

 

He sends flashbacks to swirl around my head.
I invite each one to come and stay. 
I crave to have sight of them,
To be in their presence.

 

He drops water balloons
Through my windows.
I desire more,
But he stores them away.

 

He casts his spell,
Surrounding me with black smoke.
It doesn’t choke me,
I inhale largely.

 

I feel dead,
A zombie,
A ghost.
My mind
And stare,
Blank.

 

I don’t try to shovel my way out.
I would rather dig deeper.
If I try to climb,
He stomps my foot into the ground,
And smacks me across the face.

 

Sometimes it’s best to follow,
For when I do,
I don’t become hurt
Because I’m way too deep
Into the pit.

 

When I follow,
My skin doesn’t become rototilled
Into red streams;
My hands don’t become painted
Shades of black and purple.

 

When I follow,
Nothing can hurt me;
Not even myself,
Because I’m dancing with my monster.
_____________________________________

mental illness awareness jewelry

Author's Note

Hope you enjoyed the reading. Any and all criticism is appreciated. Take Care! Stay Strong! :)

Reviews

[Gregory Stires]

i love how you personified your depression into a monster that you do a deadly dance.and how you follow it because the more you dont listen the more you hurt. i also have some problems with depression and i can understand how hard it to fight against it but instead should just go with the flow.also its strange how sometimes our "monsters" are comforting but we have to accept them since they are apart of us whether we like it or not.

[Blue Belle]

Thank you so much for reviewing.

[Savannah Bly]

Beautifully descriptive and well voiced! Great job.

[Blue Belle]

Thank you.

[Latifa]

Reflecting the fire and ice in mine.
I likethis line a lot,wonderful

[Blue Belle]

Thank you.

[Dickey Harrold]

Nicely said. I read that a submission is given in order to be safe. I'd like to have read at the end a way out was found. That you overcome this haunt. I can almost read a conclusion. However, this is deep and well described. Well done.

[C. Rose]

Congratulations on making the top ten in the first "Promote Me!" contest.
This piece fought its way to the top ten through a horde of poems with a similar theme. That says a lot about its caliber.
Voting closes in a week. Your piece is currently tied for first.
I invite you to join the "Promote Me!" group. As a finalist your piece will be accepted to the library - and should you when it will be featured.

[Blue Belle]

Thank you!

[Ayushi]

Very realistic poem..
Impressive writing..sometimes the easiest thing to do is to surrender to depression.

[AMMD]

We all have our demons. Some more than others. I, too, have danced this dance rather more often than I usually care to admit. You've done a very fine job of expressing the pain, comfort, and familiarity of depression.

[Rick r]

It's hard for me to relate as I don't suffer from depression. Your description is interesting and captures my attention. The imagery of the dance works well. I particularly like the line about the skin not becoming "rototilled" into red streams. Nice use, there. Overall good job.
rick

[jjwilbourne]

This was an awesome way to protray a internal struggle. The water balloon part was my favourite

[MoriartyMesa]

And what makes you think other monsters might not get where the work is coming from. Not speaking for all, but we all aint that bad.

[Blue Belle]

I'm not sure that I understand.