How Many

How many times do I need to cry for you to understand that I'm hurting.

Not the hurting like aching pain in my brain but the aching pain in my heart that you obviously don't see.

How many times do I need to sarcastically put myself down about my size until someone looks in my direction and thinks,

"Wow, Shes attractive."

How long do I need to keep swiping right in order to find someone that wont leave, beats me.

How long do I need to live, in order to die.