Worst Enemy

I keep making rash decisions

fueled by my pain

I hate my life and

the way I spend most days 

Im mad at myself 

for decisions made

for lack of help 

I was just trying to survive myself 

Im caged in a body that hates itself 

the stress is killing me 

inside and out 

I need to drink 

and smoke 

and dwell 

its the only way I'll get over myself 

or dig myself deeper into this bleak hell