Acquittal

No more thinking 

waiting or wishing

examining myself 

is my own personal hell

trying to mold 

into someone new 

leave behind 

the vices I would run to 

change the style 

I've clung to since I was nine

accept the fact 

I must leave some family behind

get back the edge 

I lost at 18 

after all the horrible acts

committed against me 

choke down that fear 

of doing too much or too little 

so for now, I'll quiet my aching mind

and grant myself an acquittal