Let Loyalty Be Earned

Why don’t I hear a single thing I want to say?

Why do I never learn the first time and the easy way?

Test, test, there we go

Now I hear my words begin to flow

There's no reason you should listen or trust what I have to say

Just because I also exist doesn't mean I know the way

The best thing I can do is hope I help someone like me or you

Not to say our fights are the same

Or that I understand

But back quite a few years ago it didn't matter that I had a plan 

Everything I did was pointless and even then I could see it too

Felt like everything took all I had and somehow I still had dues

Like I owed everyone whatever they said just because they were bigger, smarter, stronger

Because they could make me pay it worse if I ever got away

Like the only thing that wasn't temporary was how I could just get emptier

And emptier And how it wasn't just that nothing mattered anymore

‘Cause it hadn't for a while

And that didn't mean a thing

Because even when I had nothing

They still took more than everything I had

They could make me hurt

Make me burn

Make me fall

And it was like I was getting punished for the gall to just exist

But if I tried to die then things were still somehow my fault Felt like a Christmas Carol being chained in life or death as their thrall

What I eventually figured out is that blood has no meaning

They don't have any worth just based on their birth

And if they don't act like blood and give like blood then they don't get like it either Mother sibling cousin brother it doesn't matter who wants favors

They gotta earn that loyalty by fighting in your wars

And don't be ready to win their battles if they won't even cheer for yours

Warriors back when knew it was life that made that choice

They knew that if they were to trust it was about who would pick you first

To put you above their needs

When you can't get off your knees

Because blood can be chosen and it doesn't have to be

The ones that will give up yours to feed it to a beast

That lives inside of them made up of hunger or anger or greed

So I hope that when you hear this your heart finally learns

You choose your fights

You choose your blood

And let your loyalty be earned.