If Only

all of those years
wasted on you
all of that time
wasted on you

 

you were never
who you lead me
to believe you were
you were so different

 

in that final year
of five or so
you showed me the "you"
that you were trying to hide

 

"im just using her"
i heard you tell
your friends

 

"you mean nothing"
you would tell me
as you slept

 

i told myself
that i was wrong
that i never heard
those painful things

 

but i shouldn't've ignored it
it might have lead me
to the possibility
of this moment

 

laying in the road
blood flowing from me
in deep pulsing gushes
as i watch the back of your car
quicky drive away

 

if only i had listened
to what you said
to what everyone said

 

if only i hadn't let you
go out with your friends tonight

 

if only i hadn't come looking
for you when they told me
that you were wandering
the streets alone and drunk

 

if only

Reviews

[poetic soul]

ouch! this hurts... this very much seemed like a classic heartbroken hollywood flick penned with gripping rhymes.... very well narrated... loved the way "if only" your title was justified through the poem...

amazing work out there.. i m glad i did choose to read this..

regards
poetic soul

[Angel Baby]

Heartfelt write, full of a lot of emotion. Nicely penned. Thanks for sharing. P.W.

[Last Lying Look]

This really is an amazing little story.
Devestating and amazing.
There was something about this that really grabbed me and I have a feeling that I'll be thinking about it for a long time...
I'm adding this to my favorites.
-E.M.R