The Wall Between Us

The Wall Between Us

I don’t know when this wall got here

I don’t know how it appeared out of thin air... just came to appear

This wall makes me feel so far away and small,

This wall only gets bigger day after day despite it all.

Somebody I used to know is all I keep thinking when I see your face,

It’s like we’ve become strangers and I feel so out of place

You say you love me you say you care,

Why do your words fall short and slip into the thickness of the atmosphere?

Tell me what I can do to break through to you

I hate feeling this way so used and abused by you it’s true

Tell me do you see me as replaceable

You would have a better time talking to a phone or machine than me seems undeniable

Why do you to a machine?

Why can't you just look at me and come clean?!

For if we confess our sins he is faithful and just to forgive our sins and cleanse us of all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9)

A friend loves at all times! Born in time of adversity. Bearing all things, believing all things, hoping all things, enduring all things. Does not boast or is arrogant. Patient and kind. It is not irritable, easily annoyed, or resentful. It does not rejoice at wrong doing, but rejoices in truth. Love never ends. Faithful to forgive. Still, the trust may be broken, but you are still called friend. As with Jesus and Judas (Matthew 26:47-50). Two are better than one, if one falls, the other can help them back up. But pity for the one who falls and has no one to help pick them back up. (Proverbs 17:17) (1 Corinthians 13:4-8) (Ecclesiastes 4:10)

I need to know! You don’t know how small I’ve become

Like I’m no longer a part of your life at all it hurts deeply and succumbs

I don’t know what else to say

Please just don’t let it end this way

I miss you I miss you I miss you

You think me weird

You think me strange

But when did you go and suddenly change

Why do you keep pushing me away

Laughing at me when I’m not trying to be funny but serious

The way you don’t listen to me just makes me furious

I must admit the only place I don’t feel lonely in this world is when I am alone

when I’m with others I feel even more on my own

This seclusion just isn’t right, I know the Lord asks me to fellowship but where or what place is right

Be not unequally yolked with unbelievers, for what fellowship has righteousness with unrighteousness?! 

And what communion light with darkness?! (2 Corinthians 6:14)

I can not throw you a lifeline if you keep me drowning with you.

I cannot be free or real if you keep me bound under lock and key like I'm chained, or harnessed, bound.

True unity and freedom comes through being of one mind and heart! Shared purpose in the Holy Spirit! The true spirit of love! If he is not welcomed, then I am not welcomed! (Phillipians 2:1-2)

No one ever sees past the outside of me. I’m really not trying to be funny but real so you see how I truly feel

But you never give me the chance to be real

You already have me figured out

When did I stop being beloved by you?! When did your eyes stop lighting up when you saw me

Do you seriously not understand how human I am?!

I have feelings too and you keep pushing me away!

It’s not fair or right how you treat me so coldly and blankly!

Out of sight, out of mind completely!
But you're still in my mind, and I still pray for you!

I just don’t know what this world has done to you!!!

But I’m still here and I’m not going anywhere

My friend, please, I miss you more than words can say.

Please don’t let the world take you away.