Even Donuts Can't Soothe My Wounds

Its my first day of work today
I'm so nervous I could vomit
I have to steady my hands
Every time my heart beat gets out of wack
And play it off cool
Cause I'm a down to earth girl who's scared of nothing
(But really scared of everything)
And today I'll have my first day
And probably f**k up a lot
And probably get some attitude
From the b*****s who think they own the place
And that doesn't phase me
(Too much)
But what I'm really scared of
Is that its my first day of work
And a year ago
I wasn't working
Even though that year ago
Feels like yesterday
So that makes me remember
How life won't stop
How each minute I'm a minute less
And I can't control it
No matter what
I'm not in control
And that kills me
So as I sweat and my heart beats fast at the turn of the earth
I feel high
Too high
And with that this moment is here and the next its gone and gone and gone
Lord, help me
Derealization
Is a scary f*****g thing
I wouldn't even wish it upon demons
This world is just a big hallucination for me
Skip
Skip
Replay and so forth
My world isn't linear anymore
I'm forever high and strained