Angst

When the silence is just too loud

And the ticking of the clock taunts

When my brain tells my heart

I worry too much

I must lighten the weight of weaponized words

Truly I cannot be everything to everyone

No longer can I be strong and responsible

(Especially not in the darkness of night)

I beseech the morning

Needing it to rescue me

Knowing the sunshine will help erase

Feelings of angst playing hopscotch

through my soul

Reviews

[Lorry]

Don't we all come from what we once where Lydi...that little girl you used to be who didn't want to be a big girl and sleep with the light out?
Right now night is my friend, in the calming quiet of silly O'clock in the morning where nothing moves other than the odd flutter of a wing or the breeze through the leaves.
But I know the long dark night of the soul shall catch up to me and those odd and fearful sounds of night-life will morph into night terrors that make me once again reach for my night light, while I duck under the covers like mini-me did, safe in the knowledge of a childish mind that no matter how scary they may be, I have the duvet of protection on my side, which every child knows will keep them safe as long as they keep their eyes shut and doesn't set as much as a pinkie toe on the floor until it's morning.
Or at least I hope that is how it will be I'm my twilight years, where I cross my fingers, knees, toes and ears that nothing goes bump in the night.

[Lydia Shutter]

Well, there is only one problem with your plan...at our age, staying in bed all night would result in a real bladder problem! :) Thanks, as always, Lorry. Lydi**

[Fabian G. Franklin]

The sleeplessness that comes from the souls ambition. There's things to be done. What? We do not know. But that also is intriguing, what hidden purpose or journey is our mind calling us to? And so we chase Alice's rabbits down all the paths before the rest of sleep can find us. I'd venture we all worry too much. Nicely crafted. I enjoyed.

[Lydia Shutter]

Indeed, Fabian, we all worry too much. How to stop that worrying is the question! Thank you so much for your review! Lydi**

[Desert Knave]

As of late I find myself almost constantly hiding from words, sound bites, and, well, people-y things, because of my angst. Well worded piece. ~Jim

[Lydia Shutter]

I totally understand, Jim. Thanks for the visit! Lydi**

[Einstein Noodle]

very emotive, Lydi!! I feel you. we use wonderful gifts to listen and support people too much sometimes .. we can get use to that gifted level of "being there" and people sometimes start to presume it .. we just have our limits and i want your speaker to just let herself fall into the soft cushion of letting go and letting others pick up the slack .. we, unfortunately, replacable and can give ourselves some mental health days .. love this expressive poem .. so relatable on many levels of application .. great pic too!! that weeping blood eye .. wow!
E.

[Lydia Shutter]

E, thank you so much. Yes, we have to treat ourselves as well as we treat others or we will not be able to be of use to anyone. Easy to write the words, but not so easy to implement them. I appreciate your review so much. Lydi**

[Einstein Noodle]

appreciate you Lydi! :) .............

[Light and ashes]

If the morning eases your pain, then you have it better than many... . .
By the way, this is great.

You did a wonderful job.

[Lydia Shutter]

Indeed, I have many blessings! Thanks for the visit! Lydi**

[Light and ashes]

You are so very welcome

[emmajoygreen]

Your words epitomize 'do unto others as I would.. ' and the all around allows you to feel the same for yourself. Night is what is can be, a hiding place, a nest of self-dom

'I beseech the morning
Needing it to rescue me
Knowing the sunshine will help erase
Feelings of angst playing hopscotch
through my soul'

It will..

[Lydia Shutter]

Emma, your reviews are just so wonderful. Thank you for making me smile. When I read my own words in your review, I thought they sounded good! LOL It is a sunshiny day and I am fine....hope you are as well. Lydi**

[emmajoygreen]

Smiling because that's how I feel when we exchange.. and have for quite a few years, yes?! Having read again I just laughed.. did you hear!
Dear friend, your words have so often made me feel happier and you know how that has me walking on air - nothing compares for nudging the whatevers away! (still smiling!)
Here in SW England we could be having our Summer.. is sunshine bright and umbrella blue sky! Planted up loads of tubs for neighbours today, bit worried cos we could be due a curb on water use.. advising grey water from not too soapy quick showers. Crossing fingers and toes, no hose-pipe ban!!! Is what is called spit then polish weather if needed! Things going well, thank you. Hope and pray the same for you and your darlings.

[Lydia Shutter]

I hope you get rain soon to make those flowers grow. We are in rainy season now. We have showers nearly every afternoon. You do nudge the whatevers away for me, Emma. Thanks.

[emmajoygreen]

You're welcome, I can but try to be helpful!!

[MCS]

You’ve nailed the human condition in these troubled times that we find ourselves in. An excellent piece of writing.

[Lydia Shutter]

Thank you very much, MCS. Lydi**

[MCS]

My please. Mary

[Thomas W Case]

Tremendous work. You nailed it.

[Lydia Shutter]

Thanks so much, Thomas. Lydi**

[Sami Khalil]

We all go through those worries or angst moments for many reasons. They can be overwhelming indeed.
There are calls to think positively to replace the negative thoughts.
A truthful poem on human conditions.

[Lara]

This piece is deftly crafted and admittedly, Lydia, an unexpected surprise.
With a title such as 'angst' I imagined I was about to read something that took on quite a different tone, and find there something tightly wound...
This piece, though, is remarkably ... not that. Yet it delivers on the title with a grace and strength (I dare say) which is simply...beautiful. "I must lighten the weight of weaponised words" is a line that struck me like an oracle's tea leaves.
Nice work.
I like this.

[Lydia Shutter]

Lara, thank you so much for this wonderful review. Yeah I am seldom what people think I will be! Lydi****