Friends in tombs

The feeling of loss

Is the smile I give showing cracks in the disguise,
Do people notice that painful loss behind my eyes.
Am I not masking the hole left inside my heart,
To try and explain this, I can't fathom where to start.

I feel the sting, the pain and all the years,
I feel heartbroken and drowned in my own tears.
I look to the past, In remembrance of you,
I try to smile, about all the years together we ran through.

The despair echoes inside like erupting thunder,
Emotions so violent it tears me completely asunder.
Ripples, to waves that flood my very soul,
An abyss of pain in my heart, now out of control.

While you sit there In company on clouded throne,
I carry the weight of memories now all on my own,
I try to smile at our past, yet there sadness looms,
I now walk alone in a garden of friends in tombs.