Fake Smile

I have had a really rough time. So, while sitting in the nurses office at school I wrote this.

I want the pain to go away 

I want to feel happy again

Maybe if I put on a fake smile

It will change how I feel 

But it never does 

I want something to mask my pain

A blade, A drug, anything to make it stop

To feel numb, have no emotions 

To stop crying myself to sleep

Death does cross my mind 

But i can't hurt the one's I love

So that is not a option for me 

I must be strong 

Face everything with no fear

I must know I will make it 

I will get through 

I still wear that fake smile 

Hopefully it will soon turn real again 

Author's Note

Keep the one's who care about you close. You may feel alone but they are always there. I have to remind myself about that a lot.

Reviews

[snci]

I can really relate to this for I too, have once thought about killing myself. I too, have once tried overdosing and cutting and those were some pretty dark days for me. It was a long tiring journey. I'm talking about struggling for years even. But one random day, I was healed and life started to get better. I hope things will turn out well for you too. You can do it! :)

[MadisonJR]

Thank you, today I am actually talking to people for help. Hopefully it'll change and get better.

[Najam Us Saher]

You express your emotions really well.