I Love You

Every day I watch you
In my heart, I wonder...
If I said it--what would you do?
Would you push me away?
The words are on the edge of my tongue
When your eyes meet mine
I can't do it--the words fade and I just smile
I glance away
Ashamed of my cowardice

Every day I listen to you talk
In my heart I wonder...
If I told you--would you still be my friend?
I feel the words rising to my lips again
But then you laugh and look at me
My heart stops for an instant and I smile at you
I look away as I laugh
But my heart breaks
Because all I can think about
Is how I feel
And how I'm too scared to admit the truth to you

Every day, all I think of is you
Your laugh--your smile--the way my heart thumps
Whenever you look at me
I cry myself to sleep
Because I'm in love
But I can't ever admit it
Because you would never feel the same
The world wouldn't approve
You don't "swing that way"
It could never work for us

A million reasons I think to myself
Justifications to continue holding my secret
I hate myself more every day
And I hate you--
For making me feel this way
For being so beautiful
For being my friend
For being in my life
But I can't truly hate you
Because the truth is you're my best friend

But it's more than that
I can never say it
You would be shocked
You would never believe me
If I said it
What would you say?
Would you say it back?
Here's the truth:
I love you

Author's Note

Don't ask who it's about...please, don't ask. This is very personal and difficult for me to share with you people.

Reviews

[Clown Princess of Crime]

This is how i feel about my friend Ryan. besides the "swing that way" part lol. helplessly in love with a man for 5 years...i feel pathetic but id rather have him in my life as a close friend then not at all.

your writing is so beautiful dear, i'm not much for poems but this one i understand and can connect with so much, it makes me think of him and my love for him...though i have to move on because hes happily dating a very lucky women.
Please write more like this i Love it so much