Ode to Hopelessness

I'm sensing a theme with my stuff.

On an Autumn evening, I walked down the path to my last affairs

It was the eve of the ending week and thoughts of nothingness leapt blissfully across my mind

As I made my way, the warmth of the fading day mixed with the cool breeze to wrap me in a comforting hold around my body

As the golden trees across from me glowed in the light of the dying sun

A feeling most familiar to me infiltrated the forefront of my mind

It was known to me but I did not know why

I searched my heart and memories for clues to the mystery I had set for myself

It was as I neared those sunbathed leaves that the world became clearer than it has ever been

A lost feeling had now been found and with it came both relief and terror

Childhood forgotten, not the memories but the sensations

At first I reveled in my deduction, joyous and alive

I held my recovery for as long as I thought possible

This was before my wondrous revelation came crashing down

This feeling was lost

A fragment of a better time remembered