Note to a Friend

I wrote this starting off as a text message..then just sorta decided not to send it and then changed it into a poem...thing.

There's a hate inside me that I just found.
I wanna unleash it, but your never around.
I wanna tell you, would you even care?
Should I let you in on these thoughts I'd love to share?
There's something inside brewing deep Inside of me.
I'm stabbed in the heart where you once healed me.
I miss your face, your smile.
We never see each other, I haven't seen you in awhile. 
Why do you kill me like this? 
What did I do to deserve this?
Is this your fault or mine?
Or is it the warping of time?
Oh, I don't want this to end,
But the pain in my heart can't seem to ment.
You once healed it...but now it still remains the same.
I don't want to lose you, but I can't play this f*****g game.
I want you to love me my whole life.
But the things you do cut me like A knife.
As stupid as this poem may seem, you were my life, my dream.
But I guess nothings ever what it seems.