Gorilla

A Poem by MickeyJoy

Broken hearted rambling induced by a fastly approaching winter.

The leaves are falling now and I
feel sadder than ever
People all around me say don't
worry girl, it gets better
I love you and I hate you and I
know this sounds cliché
But I thought that you'd be there
when you told me forever
come what may

I'm not one to write about
heartbreak since I think it
sounds pathetic
But I can't stop thinking about
Christmas together and
about your grand rhetoric
I know I walked away and I'm
the one who just gave up
Boy you made me cry so many
times my tears could fill
cup after cup

Christmas Day you gave me a
silver necklace and I never
took it off
Until you tore it from my neck
one day when we were down
low in a trough
I miss your love and I miss your
mind but I don't miss your
upset screams
If there is a God they know our
good times are all that plague
my dreams

You were mine, all mine my love,
your troubles were bigger than
my own
Your beautiful eyes I saw every
day were all I equated to home
When I ran away and we yelled
"f**k you"s it started storming
hard
And it still doesn't feel normal
months later not to be walking
through your yard

I'm hung up but I'm angry
I'm collected but confused
I feel I didn't do enough
I also feel so used

I long to see your handsome
face close to my plain one
once again
I truly hope we fall back together
before my life sees end
Love is not what I seek or search
for that fact is for sure
Wherever I go and whatever I do
my sour heart will stay yours

I'm weak.

-M.J.B.