A Second Time

A little choppy.

We dated for almost 4 months,

then a person came into my life and messed with my head.

Making me feel like I could trust his word.

Making me doubt you to the point where I broke up with you.

Looking back I should have been more cautious of him.

 

I remember how hurt you were but not caring.

You didn't want to lose me because I was your world,

I made you so happy, always being there for you.

You having to see me with him made things harder for you.

 

He became abusive mentally and physically.

Isolating me from everyone, hitting and kicking me.

Leaving bruises on my arms and legs that I hid.

Calling me a b***h and a w***e.

Using me for his physical needs.

 

Wellness 2 then made me realize I was in an abusive relationship.

Being scared and not knowing how to get out.

I broke up with him at lunch with people around.

 

A couple weeks later I realized what I lost because of him,

of what I did...being so gullible.

Always thinking that if I didn't believe him we would be together for almost 11 months now.

I didn't want to believe I was falling for you again.

Because of the way I hurt you and how you said you hated me.

You loved my best friend, not wanting to get in the way of that.

Wanting you to be happy.

 

I felt so stupid telling you I was falling for you again.

Knowing that you were happy without me.

A couple days later I was shocked,

you said you were starting to have feelings for me again.

 

Now we have been dating for a little over a month.

You trust me more than anyone.

When you have a problem you come to me.

As I do to you.

 

You tell me that you won't let me go ever again,

that you won't lose me a second time.

That you love me more than anything.

 

Now things are slowly changing between us.

Feeling like we are drifting apart.

You didn't even know two days ago was our anniversary.

Not saying one word about it to see if you remembered.

Hurting a lot knowing you didn't remember.

Knowing it's only a month isn't a big deal,

the fact you didn't remember when is.

 

I love you, I can't even explain it in words.

You make me happy but right now i'm hurting.

I know we will get through this,

we get through a lot of things now.

Author's Note

Any changes?