Afraid of...

A poem about my fears...

Here I am again
Alone with my thoughts
Hearing the voices in my head
Telling me to give up
Lay down and die

I am 40 years young
I have lost jobs 
I have lost loves
I have even lost my mind a few times
But I have prevailed

However the FEARS in my mind seem so real to me
I sometimes I feel I will die alone
No one will be there to hold my hand
As my heart slows down to a stop
Who will be there when GOD comes for me

I used to care about material things and money
Now I just want security for me and my loved ones
I want my lover to travel the world if I should pass before him
Something I never got to do
After my lovers passed before me

I can remember the late night crying
The pain they were in I could do nothing about
The times they would sometimes not know who I was
The laughter when they remembered who I was
I often thought one day this could be me

So I dont pray for money anymore
Or bling or anything of the sort
I pray to not be afraid anymore
And that LOVE will be there for me( when the time comes)
And I wont be alone anymore

So as I cry writing this poem
I will keep my head up and be strong
Because I know this is only a trial
And that I know I am loved
And there is nothing to be AFRAID OF.....

Reviews

[John A Common]

Powerfull stuff. I felt this way untill I met my wife,I have been in your spot and it suck's buddy. Very honest and well written. On a side note,it is so odd to me that our generation is becoming middleaged. We we're the hiphop guys damn it.