leave me in despair

again, this is how i felt when i was alone and my ex literaly left me for dead.

The horrible nightmares
Never let me sleep
every little memory
Makes me wanna weep
They rip me open
And kill me every night
But when i wake up
Somehow i'm alright
every other thought
Has you in mind
You were my light
But now i'm walking blind
I'm barely alive
But my mind is dead
Everyone is right when they say
"Its all in your head"
Every time i stand
I know i'm gonna fall
You really want my heart?
Go ahead and take it all
Smashed to little bits
It's definitely beyond repair
Pick them up and go
just leave me in despair