Web Journal Of Red Pill Coyote: December 1st, 2021

DAAAAAAAYUM!!! I am so tired of feeling so unwanted. AND I SEE THOSE F*****G PHOTOS OF PEOPLE WHO ARE LOVED BY SOCIETY!!! PEOPLE WHO ACCEPTED FOR SOME STUPID, SUPERFICIAL REASON! IT TURNS ME INTO A VOLCANIC DIARRHEA BOWEL MOVEMENT PERSONIFIED!!! I'd like to hang out with friends, go to fun and exotic places and make something out of my self! I mean damn. I really do feel like I'm always stuck at the bottom of the barrel NO MATTER WHAT I DO! Anyways, I went to the Huntington Mall yesterday AND IT WAS ALL NUMB AND DEPERSONALIZED. Atmosphere was zero. Could be because of this left over cold. But ya know, I was mostly there to buy an internet friend something who lives in PA. 6 hours away from me. Not saying her name at all.. And I thought maybe she would like something special since her family is going through black ooze if you know what I mean... But I went into this skater dude/chick store and this blonde girl kept insisting that she help me find something for this person. I then keep focusing on this bracelet that says "I LOVE BOOBIES!" because it stood out from the crowd. And since I didn't know what to get her, I just got her that... And that worker kept telling me that she'll like it.. And the workers kept laughing... maybe they were laughing with me... I am a comedian in the works... But yeah... I guess it was for a good cause. Money goes to breast cancer research... Or so that's what the package says... COOL. But ultimately, she didn't want the bracelet... So I have to wait until tomorrow to get her a better present... Bummer... And Yes I wanted to become a comedian before seeing the Joker 2019 film. Although that is the film that resonates with me the most out of all the other films out there... I really like watching social outcast films because it makes me feel less alone on this giant green hedgehog. Willard(specifically the 2003 version) and One Hour Photo are other misfit films that I highly recommend. 

But as an OUT OF FB JAIL celebration video, I did a short music video of me with a large permanent smile that overlays my actual smile and I took my trash can and dumped all the snotty tissues on myself and proceeded to make a snow angel with them and just rubbed the old snot on my chest as a performance art... I got 30 reactions to it...

About Micah... I've vaguely mentioned her in a previous entry. She really was a girl who really stands out in my mind from all the girls I went to school with at East... Not the only one who stands out(Goofy Katie) but the one who stands out the most now that I think about it... I remember the first day of 7th grade, she was our one out of the two new kids. The other girl was more outspoken. Micah already stood out to me from the beginning because she was a rather petite girl and her face was covered in freckles. And I think I was the first person to talk to her. She couldn't tell the time on the clock for some reason and I had to help her. And I thought she had the cutest, sweetest, most wholesome voice in the world... And I remember as I noticed it, I slightly yelled "OH MY GAWSH! HER VOICE IS SO CUTE!" and the whole class laughed at me. Of course as time went on, she became more outgoing and gained friends. It's weird how I didn't have a crush on her like I do now. Like she wasn't a major focus in those days. I thought she was super cute and pretty but I think you can admit that someone is attractive without crushing on them. And she just had a real magnetic, likable identity inside the storage unit. She was spunky, kind of quirky, jovial and everyone liked her it seemed. Even my parents seemed to like her. Because my parents would go to social events up there and they would actually converse with Micah. And I remember the best way to describe her fashion sense would be "Punk geek".. In a good way.  Lol. Even though I didn't have a crush on her. I did feel the need to be like a grizzly bear warrior protector to her and idealized her to be a perfect fairy princess. And I HATED that she went to the dance with one of the guys who liked bullying me, Justin. He would constantly push me, punch me in the back and tell me how much I looked like a girl. But that one fateful day, I just got tired of his horse s**t and I just turned around and swung as hard as I could and punched him in the head and I fought his friend Zach. Zach was like THE KING OF THE BULLIES and most people in my class hated him. And I drew some blood from his neck when I fought him and I got suspended for a couple days. But even though I was seen as a social outcast, everyone in my class was like celebrating because it was like the underdog facing off against the big bad. See, Zach was popular in his class but all the students who weren't in his class hated him because he was seen as such a major league jerk. And I was one of VERY few people who stood up to him. It was weird seeing kids in my class who used to say stuff like "Oh, Cody's going to grow up to become that crazy homeless guy yelling at traffic signs" and now they were cheering me on. I remember Micah giving me a hug...

And then in 8th grade, it had really been established that most people just didn't wanna have anything to do with me. The kids in my class ostracized and excluded me and lower classmen would harass me. And I remember complaining in front of the class that I had no friends multiple times. And that's when Micah would exuberantly say "I'M YOUR FRIEND, CODY!" and she would just say stuff like that until I replied to her. No other student in my class was like that... She was the exception. She did eventually move to Franklin Furnace but I remember one day, I was talking to her on FB and she actually drove all the way down here just to hang out with me for a while and I bought her some ear rings. Sorry, I'm kind of accelerating the timeline quickly but I remember she started dating some WHOOPITY WHOOP WHOOP I'M A BAD A*S RAPPER TYPICAL ZOOMER type of guy and it killed me. I'm assuming he's gen Z(Born in the late 90's?) And it made it even worse when she fell pregnant by him. It didn't even seem real to me, honestly... I just can't see Micah like that... Ya know when you had a really bad dream and you wake up and are thankful it wasn't reality? That's what it feels like. Micah getting pregnant by some GANGSTAAAA feels like a bad dream where you have a view of an alternative timeline BUT IT'S ALL REAL AND IT'S A NEVER ENDING NIGHTMARE. But aside from all that. I really do miss Micah and even if she's still with him or has some sort of boyfriend, I have feelings for her... As in, I would really like to be her boyfriend, unfortunately... Now, she's one of those people who goes off social media and I really don't know what she's up to. But, it makes me bittersweet that her innocence has been tarnished, slightly... Reminds me of Tiffany, honestly...

Yes! THIS TIFFANY SONG IS PISSING ME OFF. I want to introduce you guys to the Maryland Goatman. YES, I DO REALIZE THIS WHOLE WORLD HAS GOAT HUMANOID HYBRIDS LIKE THAT POPE LICK MONSTER BUT THIS IS SPECIFICALLY ABOUT THE MARYLAND GOATMAN. He is the most famous of them all and he's a ding dong Cryptid like Bigfoot. Doesn't the Maryland Goatman greatly resemble Baphomet? It's all because Maryland is really close to Washington D.C.. It has to be REINFORCED more than most locations that D.C. is the place with the most Satanic and Demonic activity. It feels like i have to scream in your ears. Every single Politician is a Devil worshiping psychopath that likes to conjur up demons and monsters and they like to create literal demons and monsters. MOST PEOPLE IN WASHINGTON D.C. IN GENERAL ARE SATANISTS. More than likely, someone prominent in THAT area probably created the Maryland Goatman. Fallen Angel and Nephilim DNA could be involved. Ya know another state that's close to Washington D.C.? Virginia. YA KNOW AN URBAN LEGEND THAT'S LOCATED IN VIRGINIA THAT I'VE ALREADY COVERED ON FACEBOOK? The Bunnyman. IF YOU MISSED OUT ON THE LESSON BECAUSE YOU WERE PLAYING HOOKY, The Bunnyman is NOT A HYBRID CREATURE. He's just a man in a bunny suit who attacks people who's probably under M.K. Ultra Mind Control. Ya know what the Goatman and the Bunnyman also have in common besides being close to Washington D.C.? THEY ARE BOTH AXE WIELDERS AND BECAUSE OF THAT, IT CONNECTS THE DOTS LIKE THE MILKY WAY.