Web Journal Of Red Pill Coyote - December 8, 2021

I SAY SEA MONKEY LIVES MATTER MORE SO THAN GEORGE FLOYD'S PATHETIC LIFE. In fact, Gina Carano is a much better person than he ever was. She's beautiful, smart, talented, courageous and everything he wished to be. I just don't like worthless criminals who hold pregnant women at gun point. BUT HEY! THAT'S JUST ME! Maybe there's some people out there who are into that. Not my thing, ya know? Lol. 

 Hey, welcome back. I think... A few nights ago, I kept seeing photos of some performances at the Green Lawn Cemetery. There was a "theater" play and some choir performances. BOY! I WISH I HAD THAT KIND OF OPPORTUNITY but opportunities are always martians in my realm.  I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO DO SOMETHING WITH MY VACANT LIFE! Trying to find an outlet for all this emptiness. These are the people who can be apart of something with a snap of a Slim-Jim and I LOATHE IT. 

Anyways, yesterday, I was taking my dog Meadow for a one hour walk. And we found an already dead mouse. I kind of wish it was some other animal that I've never collected before but I guess beggars can't be choosers. Am I right? YOU JUST HAVE TO TAKE WHAT YOU CAN GET! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I took it home and I did a 2021 version of Tom and Jerry. I drew whiskers on my face and played some music by Scott Bradley as I fiddled around with that dead mouse. I took off my jazzy sunglasses, put the mouse in my mouth(Hey, that unexpectedly rhymed), SCREAMED BECAUSE IN THE METAPHYSICAL WORLD, THE MOUSE IS SCHEMING WITH ME. It fell out of my mouth and movie magic happened. Filmed it all. I uploaded it and named it "Tom and Jerry in Quiet As A Mouse". And... I only got three laughing reactions. Lol. Must not have been that good...

Parents have been bickering quite a bit, lately(I need to look up a thesaurus and find other words that's similar to arguing and fighting. Lol). But apparently mom has such a disdain for my dad that she wants him to move up into that apartment, in the backyard. Each time they fire the projectiles at each other, there's like a new step to an evaporated relationship... 

I took some of my clothes to The Salvation Army... 

How do you like my Let's Go Brandon! shirt? I should be a model or a mascot for the whole F**K JOE BIDEN MOVEMENT. joking...

Yeah, that's an intense smile but it was worth it...

Lately, I just can't help but to have vengeful thoughts filled with animosity... Specifically with Pam and I don't want that... She really is someone who needs to be rescued and taken care of and that's why it feels like I gotta constantly stop myself from giving birth to some metallic rhino. But she's clearly doing stuff that would obviously fire a torpedo to my organs. She's getting married to a man who clearly doesn't give a single f**k about her and he's clearly making her life worse but she's blind to that fact. I don't care who the f**k she dates as long as it's not him. She can date Bobby again and I wouldn't care. But the fact that she thinks I have a crush on her, shows that she has some level of narcissism. I just care about her. I think God picked me out to be the cherubim warrior to be the personified force field for her. Just because I care about someone, doesn't mean I'm in love with them. Even last year, I told her that she was more of a SISTER to me than my actual sisters. Idk... It's very complicated and complex... There's just something about her that bothers me... And it's not just her bf that puts her through Hell. It's a lot of people... Customers, co-workers and other bipedal garbage at Wal-Mart.. BUT AT THE SAME TIME, there's that feeling of being pissed off at her and it just continues. I went onto her profile and she has this status about inviting friends to a Christmas dinner. I HIGHLY DOUBT IF I WAS STILL FRIENDS WITH HER ON FB, she would make that status. Because she knows I'd be commenting on it, wanting to be invited. Is it wrong to want to hang out with people because I don't have a life? I just want people to like me, so they'll wanna be around me... I like the feeling of people liking me. I like the feeling of being apart of something, so I won't feel so insignificant. Can't tell you how many times my parents' friends will come up to us and I might as well be non-existent. Old/elderly people in general in this town are just rude and entitled. Not all but most of them. Any time someone who's about 60 or older gets involved, I just get this weird anxiety. When they're not treating me like some nobody(You should see how some of them treat me), they're f*****g barking at me because I've done something wrong in their eyes. Oh before, I might as well be some invisible ghost but now I've screwed up and you're hollering at me and degrading me. But I tell ya, people who are buddies with my parents are the worst. I don't think people give me enough credit for how much I pull on my own doggy leash to prevent myself from just doing something like spitting in someone's face or pissing on their leg because they're being a jerk. I'm sorry but it's true. I'll go a few days without talking to anyone outside of mom and dad AND HERE COMES BILL RITTENCOCKER(They all have stupid redneck names that you'd hear off of Slingblade). "HEY JIM AND DIANE! DID YA HEAR ABOUT LARRY MOCKERBUCK HAVING AN ANAL PROLAPSE!? MY SON'S A SURGEON OVER IN HAWAII! DID Y'ALL HEAR ABOUT THAT!?".

Speaking of jobs, I saw where Ollie's BBQ was hiring hosts and I was telling my parents about it and mom was like "DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT ALL THAT INCLUDES!? YOU HAVE TO DO THIS AND DO THAT! SHOVE THE MENUS UP YOUR A*S WHEN THE CUSTOMER IS FINISHED WITH THEM!". Obviously I'm paraphrasing but you get what I mean. And then for sure, I was going to go up there and apply. Things were looking like unicorn snot until mom was like "OH! I KEEP FORGETTING! THE GOVERNMENT WILL STOP GIVING YOU THAT SSI MONEY IF YOU GET A JOB! YOU'RE BETTER OFF NOT GETTING A JOB!". Just any way to make the road ahead EVEN MORE TRANSPARENT and it only leads to a cold desert because it has the ability to alternate to something promising but it never does alternate. I really like some of the workers up at Ollie's and it would have given me something to do in this tedious a*s area. Do Ohioans ever stop and realize how hypocritical they are? I'm a corpse buried underneath the grounds that people walk upon but I refuse to take my paxil because my unhappiness has nothing to do with a chemical imbalance. It's environmental. 

One day, I looked up Micah's full name on the search engine and the first result was just telling me her exact location. Wasn't even looking for it but there it was... Maybe God wanted me to know... Ya never know... fully. Maybe I could pay her a visit OR maybe it's outdated... 

I walked up to my aunt Kathy's, today... My uncle Les passed away... He was a horrible oni and a pervert to women. I MAINLY went there because I wanted to know the full story and info because my mom wanted to know. I'm sorry but Uncle Les is burning in Hell and he was never a good person. I went in her apartment and I'm like "JACK FROST IS RAPING THE EARTH" and she was like "Well, is your mom still mad at me?". I just told her "Yes but I can't control what my mom does". Because my aunt wants my mom to call her and she never does. My mom and aunt have an on going conflict going on.. I try MY BEST to avoid drama as much possible anymore, believe it or not... Lol. It's difficult. My cousins Morgan and Logan were there and it was awkward.. Well, more awkward than usual. Lol. I was only there for like 5 minutes but I gave them all three my condolences.

Guys, I think it's time we have a serious talk about the Loch Ness Monster. What is Nessie? It could be an aquatic dragon(A mystical dragon that lives off fresh water in this case) that survived the flood that God delivered during the days of Sodom and Gomorrah. A giant that used to roam the world. Too bad the minotaur couldn't swim very well. Am I right, guys? It's no wonder why mainstream scientists wanna debunk the poor lad.. That being the handsome Nessie...