Three Black Flgas (4/18 Road To Summer)

My tears and my lips burn from this mess
We called a relationship
Im jealous
Because you meant
Everything i meant
 everything was your only man for a moment
In August

Too busy on do not disturb
A collage girl that I meet a couple summers
In my suburbs

I sit and cry on this curb
My chest hurts

Misery
How in modest of me

Innocent civilians
People in tired of living
Tired of crying
Loving
A woman

Who doesn't love me back
As half as

Man this shot is so half a*s
I need to add

A new name
To this familiar face
To my unknown fame

I grew up i didnt change
But you changed
 your mind

People help the people
In the hope
That when were homesick
We have someone we're holding

19 your 19 are your tired of college
Im over it
Wasn't ready for graduation
Even though I had 37 credits

Who cares about it
Ive been faking  elation
My smile is just a coun·ter·feit
An im·i·ta·tion

Wishing it was at least a  em·u·la·tion

Braiding
Praising

Your hair

Come here
And let me stare into your cornea Iris

Ice is melting
Taija Moulton
Im hoping
Praying
You come home

I wrote chu 32 unsent songs
If feels so wrong
Saying I lo...
 were just young and reckless
Was told im too biased
When if comes to your faces

See my thoughts and see the places
We met
Two highschool  kids on Instagram
Awe man oh man
The feeling of you pulling away your hand

Had
Broken my spirit
I felt it

In my emotion
In My opinion
It broke me and brought me new demons
I met a New type of depression
You said thank you for the assurances
How depressing im not a shoe in
I put my polo boots in
A box
And threw it into my closlock
I locked away my uncle in a burial
It was vital
I talked to
My tiger
I texted you
And you never replied later

Walking the campus hearing laughter
After this disaster
Reminding of how 9 years ago I lost my sister

In 07
Losing my uncle at the age of 47
What blessings?
God im still praising
Your name
I dont cry because you're gone
 i cry becsuse you went to heaven our home

without me
And i scream
mashallah wallahi

Thinking did this girl really love me
Telling my Aunty
That ill let her break me
Nandomo
Nandomo

She said why No

Because I love her
I love you even when it hurts
This much
Im such

A separated man

Looking for heaven
In '13 i thought you were heaven
Sent
Can I lend
A lyric

And make this complex
Like its my first time
And I'm a 12 year old kid again
About to have sex
With this girl who's breast
Impress men twice her age
While shes half of 3 times my age

And if i kept on that track i would have eight
Kids to raise

Awareness
The sweetness of their innocence
They ask me daddy are you broken

Sorry child your father i broken
Thinking
Of taking
His life away
They say daddy no please stay
And play

Your piano
My shadow is gone
What's wrong
Why aren't I strong

I ponder the feeling of death
And i step
One foot into heaven

By listening to music
My favorite artist

Was told im aesthetic
I know this
I noticed
The prettiest girls are all broken
And the more beautiful seem heartless
How priceless
Was every kiss
We kissed
How priceless
Was every kiss
We missed
I wished
I had 6th chance
To make change
From these 25 cents
Just 1/4 Of a chance
To pack
up to get lunch after you come over
And sleep with me just one time
Never slept woth a girl while I was sober
19 years ive been sober
Im dressed somber
For this fu·ne·re·al
The one in having for my uncle
Ronal
L.

Youre the female version of me
Youre just another virgin to me
And yet still youre hurting me

Sorry I'm just a visitor
You're the center

Of my attention
Did i mention
I wrote you somethings
Uplifting

Im uploading
My mid terms
Are we on good terms
On the same term
But different pages

She walks faced down so her problems
She doesnt have to face them

Shes getting desperate
And now were separate
Im depressing
My friends
When I mention
That because of you im heartbroken
Lets visit Greenwood
We should
Push
Each other
Closer
to the Lord

Youre 19 now & I still love U
Im sure U knew