You Are Too Late !

Maybe i should just stop.
Stop.
Stop looking for something that doesn't want to be found.
Stop searching for something that's not for me.
Love.
L-O-V-E.
Love is just around the corner they said.
Love is in front of your nose.
Love is when you found your soulmate , your one and only , your other half.
Love is .... Not for me.
And i'm not for love.
Love is ...running away from me .
Like i'm on a race and i'm running far behind.
And i'm trying to reach out to.....nothing.
Just empty space in front of me.
A cloud of smoke that blurs my vision.
Hallucination.
I thought was there , but when i opened my hands to grab it , it vanished.every time.
I was always there for love , but love was never available for me.
Love was always too busy, too tired , too lost to arrive.
It's time to leave it all behind.
No more expectations.
No more hopes.
No more love.
If love is not for me , then i'm not for love.
If love is not looking for me, then i'm not searching for love.
If love is lost somewhere on the way, then i might as well say "go on, get lost even more , because i've been beaten up, left with stitches and bruises waiting for you, so don't bother showing up now. You are too late "