Pain

This is from a dark time that i am not happy about, and i wrote down exactley what i was thinking.

what have i done?
what am i doing?
i have hurt you too much
now it is hurting me

every time i say those things
it hurts me more
i care so much
but hurt you so deeply
how can i do this?

this pain doesnt stop, why doesnt it stop?
i want this pain to stop.
i will make it stop

i take this knife
and test the edge
i dont want to do this
but the pain wont stop

Cutting into my arm
i feel the blade,
my soul flowing free.
i see the life that once was

im awake now
this pain still alive
My wrists are clean, there is no blood
why do i only dream
what i want most

this pain doesnt stop, why doesnt it stop?
i want this pain to stop
i will make it stop

Reviews

[Bhavya Kaushik]

This poem is definitely dark till saturation!
I always love to read poems like this....
Great work!
Keep writing.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Well great expression of your feelings... I know many people get these feelings now and then, depression can strike anytime... thanks for sharing your thoughts at the time.