Falling like an autumn leaf

 

I promised myself not to say  “  I regret it  , If only I didn’t choose it … ! “  I promised

I said I’ll be strong , no matter what happen , I’ll face it , I’ll handle it , it’s not big deal

But I’m afraid I made a promise that I can’t keep

I’m afraid I’m dying of remorse and guilt

Although I know I chose something very good and noble

I keep thinking That I wasn’t meant to do it

That I was involved in something bigger than me

Something in which , whether you go up or you go down

I’m afraid I’m going deep deep down

Falling slowly like a feather in the air , or an autumn leaf

So gently that I’m not feeling that I’m falling

So soflty that I feel like I’m still up

And in the end , when I touch the ground

I realize that I wasn’t tied in the tree with the other leaves

That I slipped and fell down  without realizing

And then I would be surprised and broken at the same time

Wondering , how I missed it ?

How didn’t I pay attention ?

How  didn’t I notice my position ?

Is it possible ? That in the moment when you feel  so up , you find out that you’re actually way deep down ? 

I don’t wanna feel like a falling autumn leaf

That’s why I won’t regret , I’ll keep the promise I made

I should

I’ll fight to the finish

Until I’m finished .

Reviews

[William Liston]

Yes, the feelings expressed in this are so deep and relatable. I think we've all been at this point before, where we're slowly falling without realizing it. Those are the moments when reality seems to hit like a hammer -- with no warning or anything. I like how you illustrated this with the "autumn leaf" and "feather in the air" analogies ... they were vivid and somewhat soothing. I wish you the best on the path you've taken :)

- William Liston

[Black Jess]

*-* I'm so so glad you liked it , because I've wrote this poem in a moment of weakness and I shared it immediately after finishing writing it , So I didn't have the time to check it again and see if I should change something . So thank you again , and so that you Know ,the path i've chosen is to be someone good who helps people and heal them ! See you ( through your writing XD )

[Black Jess]

I made a choice that could change my life completly , I knew from the begining that It won't be easy , that's why I made a promise to myself that I won't give up no matter what , and I won't regret doing what I did because there's nothing wrong with it , actually it's the best thing i've done ever ! And I'm still keeping that promise .