where did all this go wrong?

like i have said before i hate my step dad, i now know he is the cause of all the pain.... not me

At night I hear my mother cry `cause of the mental pain she’s in.
I just close my eyes and wonder how this all went wrong,
Is it my fault that my mother is crying?
Is my family fucked up because of me or is it them?

I think about my scars and the blood that I have shed
I wonder if the blood helped and if the pain ever really went away.
I think about the tears I’ cried and the nights I've lied awake.

Where did this all go wrong?
Where did my life end and this Soap Opera begin?

I’m sick of it!!
I’ll just end my life right now!!
There is no use in me staying here,
No use in me hurting them anymore

This knife tonight will be my end,
This pain will soon be dead.  
I…will soon be dead.