Relapse

I want to stay faithful-
But who can I give my loyalty to?
Is it- you?
Someone with a pure heart, worth trusting.
Can you tell me for sure this ain't just lustin'?
And I'm into your style,
As much as I want to be into your body.
Loving your mind,
When it's good and when it's naughty.
But I've had too many run-in's with dead ends-
Who promised forever, but we couldn't even stay friends.
And I don't blame em'.
No hate to the ex's I was dating,
We had a good run,
But the negative vibes let me know that we had to end the fun.
I was always there for em'.
Whether they stayed a part of my life, or left-
I do what a man does and still care for my women, no less.
However,
I'm still searching for the one who can have my all;
Who can break me out of these tight four walls.
Suffocating; I'm in need of a breath of fresh air-
Can you be that gust?
The breeze with that gentle touch?

I don't know who I'm writing to,
Or if she'll ever be reading this-
But I ain't keeping a secret
I'll type it all out:
I want that good loving that all them R&B singers is talking about.
I want to, know your frame,
Your mind, and your soul.
I want to,
Be one with you and become a whole.
Cause my heart is missing something,
And I'm thinking it might be true...
I want to be in love with you.
This is-
Coming from someone who thought he was done-
I thought I could quit that...
But like an addiction to a drug, I'm coming right back.
I'm shaking and fiending for that euphoric restart;
And you can have a hundred and ten percent of my heart.