Dancing with Two

It's kinda just some ramblings that were going on in my head

Sometimes all I can think about is why I even attempt in getting back up, when I know I’m just going to fall back down. I often feel like a bouncy ball heading towards the train tracks. It’s only a matter of time for me to be caught in the webs of the tracks, and then it’s just patience until the day I finally go splat! Then I tell myself, “that’s not true”, and I’m stuck, conflicted in my mind. I can’t wait for the day when a single side wins. However, there are several battles in war, before a side admits defeat, and the other is boosting its victory. So I suppose all I wonder is when the battles end. I’m seventeen and I feel like I’ve been living in this war of constant confliction for my entire life. Every day is another battle, another fight, with a different victor, so that’s a total of 6,205 battles. Take away the first three years in which I don’t remember and that leaves 5,110 battles. It’s no wonder why I feel so drained all the time. I want to wake up one morning and there be a continuous feeling of pure bliss. They say ignorance is bliss, but for one day ignorance doesn't sound too bad. In fact I think I would gladly take on the life of an ignorant person, if that means peace…but then I consider all the people who I would hurt with my ignorant mouth. There I go again, conflicted. I can never make up my mind because there’s two sides to everything. However, the problem isn't that there’s two sides. The problem is that they both make sense. Like neither side is right but neither side is wrong, and the people who see one side of an argument tend to be blinded by faith or whatever’s blocking there view. So I suppose I would much rather be conflicted then blinded. I would much rather be grey than white, and I would much rather be white than black…so grey it is. So confliction may make feel like the rope in tug of war, but at least I can see the truth.

Reviews

[Nyu]

I really like your questions and search of balance in all of your life battles you face everyday. What I as a reader was hoping to find was the answer. What is the truth that you mentioned on your closing sentence? What makes it interesting is that it is not something I or any other person can answer. This is your life opportunity to choose and to see what comes from your questions asked.

[Noting Society]

The truth, is the grayness of life. There is no pure good or pure evil and most people dont think like that. They just see their opinion and assume that the other persons beliefs is nothing but madness. The grey is the truth