Abandoned Child

I once tried to give up on adulthood, but my mother wouldn't let me.

I'm supposed to be a college kid.

Supposed to be an adult.

Supposed to be a lot of things.

The results are all my fault.

 

Supposed to have it figured out.

Supposed to have a plan.

Supposed to know just what I want.

It's my fault I'm where I am.

 

You raised me to be this person

Beat me when I was "wrong",

Praised me when I did well.

"She's beautiful", "She's strong".

 

Housed me, bathed me, fed me,

Gave me meds when I was weak,

Taught me how to walk and dress,

Taught me how to speak.

 

You were the one to wipe tears,

Kissed my scrapes when I would fall.

You carried me for 18 years!

You were my all-in-all!

 

Sheltered, brain-washed, stupid

To think I could make it through.

Never stopped to realize

How much I relied on you.

 

You said that you miss me.

You said I could come home.

And then you told me "Never mind"

And left me on my own.

 

It's my fault I'm where I am today

Due to decisions that I've made.

It's your fault that I am this way!

Your love's a joke.

Well played.

Author's Note

Starting to realize that a good deal of my poetry is aimed towards my mother... Wrote this freshman year of college.

Reviews

[Ciara Di Salle]

This is one of those poems that even if you can't relate it is so well worded that you communicate feelings... wow

[NANA]

I don't usually like to rhyme so obviously because it makes me feel like I'm reading a Hallmark card, but I think it worked out okay.

[Ciara Di Salle]

It was very effective

[NANA]

Thank you! :)