Negative Self-Evaluations

A moment of low-moral

It's not that I'm not right,

It's just that everything I try is wrong.

It's not that I'm a fake,

It's just that I'm not really very strong.

It's not that I'm too proud,

It's just that I'm too scared to let you see

What's eating me alive inside, the mask that's me

That isn't "me".

The mask you're seeing everyday is beautiful and strong and proud.

The person wearing it is fun and

likes to sing and laugh out loud.

But do you notice now and then that she'll disappear?

She's sitting on the bathroom sink

Trying to wipe away each tear

You don't know it, but she's scared

that you'll think that she's dumb.

She doesn't understand,

She's numbed herself and morphed

into someone

She wants you to believe she is

all the things you see each day

The only way that she gets by

Is by pretending it's okay.

It's just another day is all.

Another really stupid day.

Author's Note

College was a depressing 3 months for me. My favorite hiding spots were the bathroom and the elevator because I knew no one would walk in on me.

Reviews

[MoriartyMesa]

I found this to be not only straight foreword, but it reminds us all that we sometimes have either hats or masks we must wear in order to make our lives work.



Nice job.