Missed the kiss

true story about a small moment that I regret

That first touch

The first time our eyes have ever been this close

(why have I never seen how blue they are?)

we pause

I take in the way your colonge smells

spicey and yet a little sweet

your hand on the small of my back 

and on the back of my neck

My hands on each of your biceps

you pull back from a hug

another pause with our heads so close

and in that moment, my heart beats so loud

I wonder if you can hear it too

we both lean in closer

we both breathe heavily

and in that moment

when everything feels right

I pull away

you back away and sit back

I should've gone for it

maybe that night would have ended differently

I suppose I will never know.