Rant on

Just a small poem of my emotions.

I hate everyone trying to understand how I feel. 
I hate everyone Trying to make me better.
I wish someone would just look inside my head,
And see the way that I really feel.
There is no way I can possibly describe it.
I love you but I hate you all at once.
I want to smile like a normal person.
But this Damn chemical imbalance in my brain,
It just makes me cry all the time. 
From the scars on my legs, 
To the scars on my heart,
I hurt all over
and I just 
Want
to 
be 
Better.
Please?
Is that to much to ask?
To just be better?
How much will you give me to try and handle?
How much longer can I deal?
I dont want to DEAL with it anymore. 
I just want
To
Be 
Better.
Please?