The Contest of Motivation

Watch, as patience leaves,
Replaced by laziness
And self deceit,
God damnit,
I thought I had it,
as it turns out,
it was just another moment gone manic.

Full force ahead, it says,
speaking only in a tongue it knows instead,
spewing lies like magic,
incanting a life turned tragic,
whatever,
I thought I had it,
turns out it's just another moment abandoned.