& I Lost Myself

A little Piece of Something that We've ALL Been Through.

& I Lost Myself, Trying to Help You. 

I tried to help put you together-

So that you can see what I do, when you look in the mirror. 

I magnified your strengths, I looked at you through the eyes of God.

I Smiled more than usual, to see your Smile escape your face.

I tried to kiss your soul & hug the broken pieces of your heart. 

I put aside who I was, so that it could be all about You.

& I was cut up along the way, and I forgot to tend to the wounds, because I was still tending to yours.

I bled, I felt Pain, but it was worth it all as I saw you Progress.

I tried to love you, as you healed.

You used me up; I used all my Strength to be what you needed.

I thawed my heart, just to thaw yours, & I was Emptied.

I tore down my walls to show you that I came with no hidden agendas, you saw all that I was.

& you took it all without Mercy, but it was all worth it because I saw you Change for the Better.

I neglected myself so that you wouldn't feel abandoned.

And you got better. 

You felt emotions again. You began to Feel.

You were beautifully covered in scars, scars of how you've survived so much.

You weren't bleeding anymore, for we tended the wounds together & I nursed you.

You started to love again. I didn't have that much love in me, but God did.

I didn't mind though because your sincere smile was worth it All.

But then, there came a time when I began to realize you didn't need me anymore. 

I was no longer important to you. 

You could see yourself in the mirror, smile and appreciate all you saw.

You were able to go days without speaking to me. 

You replaced me with others and I saw how much you grew- I'm proud of you.

But as I stepped back, I took a look at Myself... Or what was Left of Me.

I was left empty, in ruins.

Bleeding, infected, & calloused. 

Cold. Numb.

& hurt. Incredibly hurt.

I realized that I've become so cold.

I've neglected myself, to help you. 

I've forgotten to love, because I loved you so hard.

I've realized that I did all this and left God out... Because I Lost myself trying to Heal and Love you.

I had to Sit myself down, & Pray.

& I've come to this Realization-

No one is born cold-hearted. We let certain situations reshape our Love into Hate; and as harsh as the circumstances may seem, it is never too late to Rediscover yourself...

& As you go and live happily- I'll be rediscovering myself.

In the meantime, though, you should know. . .

I Lost Myself, trying to Help You. 

Author's Note

Hey guys, this is something that I wrote about a year ago.
It may not be perfectly written. but it was written from the corazon!
Please excuse the grammatical and punctuation errors, if any (:

Feel free to comment.

Reviews

[Anindita Janhabee]

The title itself says everything... But at the end, you found everything, rediscovering yourself. I am proud of you!!! Actually this piece is really really much relatable, I remember very nicely the time when I used to care for someone in the same way without caring for myself. I prayed for him, not me. I cried for him, when he was hurt. Slowly, I began to bring him to the correct path, worthy one. Others told that it was a great job. Then, our relationship grew stronger. Unfortunately, it all changed one day, as I realized that there was no place for me in his heart, soul or even mind. He wanted to forget me for unknown reasons. And asked me the same as a favour. I couldn't deny. I accepted that unfairness. Now I am all alone, rediscovering myself....all the pains I had suffered back, I hope I don't get it again. If at all I get, then it must be respectable and if obvious reasons. Life is as such I know... Still, sometimes we get a lot more than we expect. Well written dear... thanks for writing such a great poem...I hope you heal yourself in the best way.
Anindita : )

[The OutKasted]

What you wrote to me was SO powerful, Anindita!!!
I am so grateful that you're in a stage in your life where you're also healing and rediscovering yourself.
I believe that pain teaches us many things that we NEED in order to Grow and to mature.
But you know what? I can see that you're so capable of loving someone so purely, and the day will come where the person you decide to pour your heart out to will do the same.
Thank you so much for sharing all that with me, I truly appreciate it

[Anindita Janhabee]

most welcome... I am too much glad for your sweet words, even though I am much younger to you, still I can understand the feelings of your poem cause I had been through all that written here.... thanks for sharing, I will look for more of your works soon... : )

[Inject Positivity]

Priceless!!!

I'm stunned with the way you have written this poem... Believe me I can relate to the feelings of this write more than you can imagine... I have been there... I gave my life to someone, stayed there for that person all the time, everyday trying to make her realize her beauty and make her believe, it took some time for her to understand her own self but when she realized it, she started to change her views of life and became happy... It made me more happy than anybody else... I took her pain and all her hurt but one day it all changed, I found myself without any meaning in her life, and found myself alone and broken...

The place she was in once, I reached to that stage, but I'm happy I that she found herself again... The biggest loss I had was losing God... But as your ending says there is always opportunity to move on and rediscover ourselves and I am rediscovering myself now...

Thank you so much for this heartfelt work... It touched me very deeply...

Sincerely
Dhiman

[The OutKasted]

Awwww Dhiman!
I'm humbled and entirely Grateful that you were able to relate, and perhaps not to the painful parts, but to the part where you took your experience, and you learned from it.
You learned, and now you're healing and growing.
Thank you so much for taking of your time to read my material.. I never thought it was worthy enough to be read!
Thank you so, so much.

From my heart, to yours

[Inject Positivity]

I'm more than connected to your works frnd, I can tell you this poem is the most relatable to my life, the past I went through... I'm grateful to you for this beautiful work... Please feel free to send me read requests... Thank you for this kind reply to me... God bless you frnd...

[The OutKasted]

God bless you so much more!
And thank you again..
This is the Beauty of Life..... The one thing that we all dislike to feel the most -pain- actually connects us all in deep, profound levels.
Our past pains, help us understand each other better...
Thank you again for your time, and kind words!

XXOXOX

[Inject Positivity]

Very true, you said it very well frnd, it's the life's hardships and pain that help us to connect with the people who have seen the same pain... I'm glad to know that you are rediscovering yourself... Sending good wishes to you... May God help you all the way through this journey...