Butterflies

In the film Love Actually, there is one specific scene that never fails to make me tear up. I suddenly want to cry like a baby with a bursting heart.

Thomas Sangster portrays a little boy named Sam - who is hopelessly in love with a girl in his class.

He is so in love with her - he decides to try to tell her before she leaves to return to America from England.

Sam frantically runs through the airport - and finally gets to the girl he is so enamored by.

I won't tell you what happens - just watch down below if you like!

The feeling of love - and the emotions that come with it are euphoric.

I don't think I've ever fully been in love, but I have definitely felt butterflies.

One of my favorite feelings.

It is full of hope.

Of joy.

Of mystery.

Of longing and grace.

There is a zooming type of feeling in my stomach.

It's a rush. A wind. A force. A jolt.

My heart was shattered recently.

I remember feeling quite broken. - I had never felt true heartbreak before - and I would not wish what I had felt upon anyone.

If I could describe it all....I remember simply feeling like someone literally broke me in half.

I wished over and over for this chapter to end.

To feel butterflies again.

I couldn't even recall what those butterflies felt like.

But yesterday - I felt it for the very first time in a long time.

I am beginning to smile again.

To sing in the shower again.

To dance again.

For someone new is filling my mind.

and I am overjoyed.

A warm welcome back to the butterflies!

I've missed you.

I survived! I'm alive..and I'm ready to fall again.

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