Dear Future Husband

Dear Future Husband, 

As of right now, I am 26 years old. 

And I feel utterly broken and empty. 

I am trying very hard to stay strong and to be positive..

But my heart and faith has been broken by a few men. 

Did you know that I am so lonely I have fallen in love with a dead man? 

He died in 1916 and I like to think he is watching over me. 

His light lurks in my peripheral vision every day. 

And though you are not here yet, he fills your gap. 

Right now I just feel very unsure. 

Unsure of where I am going. 

But isn't that the beauty of life? 

You truly never know what's going to be around the corner. 

Maybe you are a man I already know. 

Maybe you are right under my nose. 

Maybe you are Michael; the boy I married at the age of 10. 

Maybe you are one of my current crushes; like Mr. Rooney or Andy. 

Perhaps you don't exist. 

Maybe I will never marry. 

That would absolutely break my heart, you know. 

Everyone has their person. 

Everyone deserves to be loved. 

And I have so much love to give. 

Either way, I hope you come soon. 

Because I have found myself more sad than happy lately. 

Maybe it is the winter. (Probably!) 

I will love you fiercely. 

And I know without a doubt you're going to be one hell of a man. 

You aren't going to always make me happy...

But you are going to make every single bullet hole in my heart filled and eased. 

I can't wait to find you! 

Love always,

Your future wife. 

xoxo