Letters to My Grieviances

The poem tells about the story of an individual overcoming and coping with her abandonment trauma.

The only time
I will offer tears to my soul
When I will see a coffin.
I will not offer tears
To my abandoned battered body
Left in my own bloodbath.
I will not offer tears
To the memories
Of a dead love.
I will not offer tears
To any scam named happiness
To let tears become frost
And bite me in the winter
For spring must end.
I will not offer tears
To any shapeless deceit.
I will not offer tears
To some relative hypothetical concept.
I will not offer tears
To a new muse.
I will offer tears
When I will shield myself
Keep the doors locked
And dissect the layers
Of my lifelong deposited pain.
One by one
Tears will wash away the stain.
Nobody will know
What happens when the doors are closed
Just the way
Nobody will know
What happens when they abandon you.
No bruises ,no cuts,no burns
Will be known.
No public execution will nappen
To the sinner.
Those who were abandoned
Will shine in their glory.
Sunshine will slip through
The cracks of scar,
Drench you
In Strength
In dignity
In stacks of honour.

Author's Note

Here the mentioned are who suffer from abandonment trauma grieve for the rest of their lives,the breathlessness,the crippling feeling of fearing the same experience of being left alone.So these people have stopped becoming vulnerable,have stopped opening up.Offering tears means being vulnerable and open to love,to trust people.Here the protagonist believes that she no longer wanna give her heart out rather weigh down the risks and be watchful about her heart.Her independence of dealing her own trauma without involving others gives her strength and confidence and that's how she's winning her battle with abandonment trauma.
The word relative hypothetical concept means romantic love affair.new muse means new love,winter and spring reference is put to understand that vulnerability shown in good times might come against you in bad times.Shapeless deceit means initially truthful and promising but gradually showing its true colour.